Something wrong?

Definitely, yes. Something somewhere is wrong, very wrong, of course with me. If you know me, you'd know what I'm talking about. Past few days (maybe months) I feel like a cold corpse. As they say, there's no fire in my heart and clarity in my mind, there's nothing that makes me happy, nothing that I want to die for, I cannot crack my jokes. I cannot do not tweet and make shit attempts to sound cool, I cannot make  people friends laugh, or even strike a conversation. There's nothing I want to talk about, I've always struggled with small talk but I've seem to lost the ability to talk even with the best of my friends, who claim they understand my silence, do they? I don't. This, this helplessness is unacceptable. I need to figure it out, is it about moving to Bangalore, I dont think so. Is it because I keep unwell very often? Maybe. Is it because I havent been able to write of late? I've realized writing is about pushing your limits, of course you can write, give it your 200 percent, if you need to, writer's block is a farce. If writing defines your individuality, this is a small price to pay. Also, write what amuses you, not what amuses the readers, write for yourself. Coming back, I cant seem to remember words, events, memories, good or bad.I seem to be falling in an abyss, waiting to hit the land and start attempting to climb up again, at my own pace. Is it because I dont have a clue where my life is headed? Yes. I donno how to earn shit loads of money and spend it, without a second thought, on silly things, things that'll affect my life in no way, I'd buy them for no reason, I want that kind of money! I love nobody, or maybe I do, who cares. Sau baaton ki ek baat, next time you ask me to meet, please be informed that I cannot talk, its beyond me, I write because thats my karma, don't care shit about the world. Maybe its just another phase, maybe of course it'll pass, the question is when. I'm ready to hit the bottom, to climb up again. Till then, please bear with me. Like they say, This too shall pass.